Have you ever been told that you are a strong person? Becoming a widow before the age of 23, having a major surgery just months after and being a single mom without breaking seems to qualify you as a strong person to other people. I always have told people that if it wasn’t for God, I would not have made it.
However, when life changes, your mindset also changes. You know God brought you through some of the deepest valleys that one could face, so anything else that comes your way will be easy. Sometimes when life seems easy, we tend to not spend as much time with God.
In December, I prayed for God to renew my passion for Him and to give me drive. If only I knew what I prayed for…
God answers prayers in an unexpected way.
While life may be calm for a season, it doesn’t stay that way. We are all either about to go through a storm, are in one, or have just gotten out of one. Just like storms, they vary in size. You can go through a small rainstorm, or a massive hurricane.
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January 2nd, I got hit with severe anxiety out of nowhere. It was so bad for days, and I would only feel better when I prayed or read my bible. When I started to feel better, I stopped spending as much time with God. Not only did the spirit of anxiety come back to attack, but it brought along with it the spirit of depression.
I remember a sermon years ago when I first got saved and the Pastor described people that are away from God’s presence as fish out of water. When everything was going smoothly in my life I began to spend less time with God. I was that fish out of water literally gasping for air and felt like I was going to die. Tears constantly fell down my face, I constantly felt like I was going to pass out, and had an overwhelming sense of doom. I began to pray for discernment and wisdom, and I would cry out for God to make it all stop. I couldn’t seek Him enough.
“For My thoughts are not your thoughts,
Nor are your ways My ways,” says the Lord.” Isaiah 55:8
God is FAITHFUL, He healed me, and never let go of me. Sometimes the storms we go through is an answer to our prayers. My prayers from December were answered in a way that I could never have imagined. I have a NEW passion for God and such a drive! We may not understand the purpose for our trials in the moment, but we must trust in Our Heavenly Father. The enemy tried to destroy me, but God worked those trials for good. Remember this – God hears you, He loves you, and He will answer your prayers! He is doing something GREAT in you, so hold on and keep fighting the good fight!