“The kingdom of heaven is like a treasure hidden in a field. When a man found it, he hid it again, and then in his JOY went and sold all he had and bought that field” – Matthew 13:44
When God’s call is radical obedience, what will we do? How will we respond? I found myself in the last year being prompted by this question from God, “Will you give this to me?”
Every day God would ask me, “Will you give this to me?” I spent the first couple weeks hearing this feeling perplexed. I had never really heard the voice of God like this before nor had He ever asked me a question so plainly but day in and day out he asked, “Will you give this to me?” I usually would brush it off thinking, what do I have that’s any value to God?
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After a week or so of avoiding the question God had been asking in my spirit, I knew what He meant. He wanted my life and the things I had begun to covet over Him and His plans for me. At the time we were in the middle of a remodel that we had waited for 10 years for. It was everything I could possibly dream up on my Pinterest board (Within our budget.) and to me, it was perfect. It represented to me almost a decade of hard work and sacrifice to finally be able to make our home something I was proud of and somewhere we could bring our newly adopted children home to. Quite honestly I was shocked when God was asking for it. During the remodel we couldn’t afford to be renting another house so we were living in the house while it was being remodeled. I was working 14 hour night shifts with Bose headphones to sleep through the noise. We were frequently without water or electricity while the men were working on it and without a kitchen for 2 1/2 months. In my mind it didn’t at all feel like an indulgence. When God started asking me this question we were about a week away from finishing the kitchen, the part I had very much coveted was days away from being finished. (Symbolizing us being closer to finishing the remodel.) Daily I would pass the kitchen that wasn’t even finished and God would ask, “Would you give this to me and never use it, even once?”
I felt as though I was rationalizing with God. In my mind the question God was asking was, “Will you give me the thing you worked 10 years for and are struggling to live in before you ever enjoy it for even a day?” I began to argue with God, “You are God. You don’t need a house or a kitchen. Just let me use it a few times let me live in this house that I worked so hard for.” God never argued back, He gently continued to ask me, “Will you give this to me?” Not once changing the question or adding to it. On one particular morning after coming home from a long night at work I passed the kitchen and once again I was asked the question. This time I fell to my knees and told God of course I would give it to him. In that moment I finally realized God wasn’t asking me for a kitchen He was asking me for a life solely surrendered to Him. I cried and confessed I would give my life for Him let alone a stupid kitchen or house. God was showing me the places of my heart that I had begun to covet things over Him and His purposes. God knew at that time that those things we’re going to get in the way of a plan He had for me but He had to catch it before it fully developed.
It wasn’t but a week later an opportunity came that changed the trajectory of our plans and after a series of undeniable events we agreed to move abroad as missionaries and suddenly I understood why God was asking me if I would give him my house…The house I loved, the house I cherished, the house I had plans of raising my children in; not long after it was ready to live in – we would be leaving it.
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God often asks us what are willing to do to follow Him and much like the rich young ruler in the bible we go away sad when we realize that Gods asking us to give up our materials things and comforts. In the bible the ruler asks,
“Teacher what must I do to inherit eternal life?” Jesus tells the ruler there is just one more thing you must do. “Go and sell all of your possessions and give your money to the poor and then you will have treasure in heaven. Then come, follow me.” At this the man’s face fell and he went away sad for he had many possessions.” – Matthew 10:21-22
In order to be his disciples we must set aside our desires and allow our lives to be completely yielded to His perfect plans and purposes. My carnal nature told me I wanted safety and success but my heavenly father assured me that those things offered me nothing as far as eternity and He began to show me they were the very things that would keep me from following Him and the plan he had set out for me. That morning I gave God ‘my kitchen’ and my yielded heart. The following day we got the “call” we had been waiting for almost 2 years. We had been matched for our adoption and within a week and a half we were on a plane to meet our children for the first time. Now a year later we are preparing once again for His calling as we sell most of our belongings to follow the calling He has placed on our hearts in a country that is not our own. I can’t help but laugh because after the fight I put up, God gave me my house (and my kitchen) for a season because He is a good Father and knew I wanted it for a time… But only for a time. And because He is such a good Father He doesn’t’ let me stay in my complacency. So in the upcoming months as I pack up boxes and make preparations for our family to move abroad I no longer covet this house or our things in it but I rejoice that there is a treasure more valuable than all, Jesus.
My Prayer for today:
Father I pray that we never hear your call and go away sad when we count the cost. Let none of us be like the rich young ruler following your commandments but forgoing our inheritance in your kingdom because we are overcome with a love of earthly possessions or comforts. Give us a revelation of the treasure we have in you. Daily remind us that the things we take comfort in this earth will fail and fall away but YOUR love is eternal. Let us not squander the plans and promises you have for our lives. Let us be awakened to the greatest gift, your son Jesus and let us follow Him at any cost. For we have found the treasure and with JOYFUL hearts we will do anything to buy that field. It is in your precious name we pray. Amen.