This topic may come a bit sensitive to some women, and that includes me. I am neither of the two, but I have felt it in my heart that God wanted me to write this one on a personal note.
Here’s Our Story
My husband and I have been married for three years, and we’ve been trying to conceive but to no avail. During those years, I have held on to faith and faith alone. Faith that one day we will have our miracle baby, too. I have nothing against science. In fact, I love science so much because I learn a lot from it. Moreover, when I became a born-again Christian, I discovered that there are some things that science can’t explain and the Bible can.
Going back to our story, my husband waited with me faithfully and patiently without consulting for professional help. We just left it all to prayers. And yet, no baby came.
This year, my husband approached me one day and said that maybe it’s about time we seek professional help. Perhaps what we need to do is combine science and faith along with heartfelt prayer for God to grant our request. I agreed that it’s also about time we ask people who can help us with our situation.
We are about to have our checkup so I can’t share any details regarding the results at this point. I do hope I get to share it with you whatever and whenever it may be.
My Heart Grieves, Too
For the last couple of Sunday services, a lot of the testimonies were about infertility, miscarriages, IVF, and miracle babies. However, the ones that got most of my sympathy were those about women who lost their babies. I cannot really say because I haven’t gone through (yet) what they went through. Their testimonies were full of pain and sorrow. Some moms had miscarriages four times! There were those whose unborn babies never made it to one week, Couples whose DNAs weren’t compatible, etc.
Through their sorrows, there was joy, too. These moments revealed how faith had made them strong through all these trials. They moved them closer to God. They had the strength to face the loss, the courage to try again, and the faith to keep on praying. Most of these testimonials had happy endings.
They were able to claim what they prayed for even though they had to deal with a lot of sacrifices and endure life-and-death situations.
I must admit it was also because of these testimonials that I got to recognize what God was telling me – try all options available and try them all by faith. There’s a tinge of fear in my heart for what the outcome could be. I even asked my husband which is more painful, to lose a child during pregnancy or to find out that you’ll never have a baby ever?
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These were all tough moments, and yet these were also faith-testing times. Apart of God’s plan to know how much we are willing to obey Him and carry our own “crosses.” Being a mom is hard enough. But trying to be a mom is even harder.
A Prayer For Married Women
To all the moms who lost their unborn babies and to those who can never have one, God knows your pain more than anyone in this world. Some of us may not be able to relate to what you went through, but God can feel your suffering. He knows it when His Son suffered on the Cross, too, and died a painful death.
God is also a parent who knew how it feels to lose a child and yet His promise will also remain that He will resurrect anyone who believes in Him. All the unborn babies may have never made it in this world and were never tainted by it, but they’re also now in a place where we will meet them one day and well taken care of by the greatest Parent in all the heavens and the earth.
“In the same way, it is not my heavenly Father’s will that even one of these little ones should perish.” – Matthew 18:14 NLT